A bit of my soul

“This is for girls who have the tendency to stay up at night listening to music that reminds them of their current situation. Who hide their fears, hurt, pain and tears under the smiles, laughs and giggles on a daily basis. The girls who wear their heart on their sleeve. The girls who pray that things will work out just once and they’ll be satisfied. The girls who scream and cry to their pillows because everyone else fails to listen. The girls who have so many secrets but won’t tell a soul. The girls who have mistakes and regrets as a daily moral. The girls that never win. The girls that stay up all night thinking about that one boy and hoping that he’ll notice her one day. The girls who take life as it comes, to the girls who are hoping that it’ll get better somewhere down the road. For the girls who love with all their heart although it always gets broken. To girls who think it’s over. To real girls, to all girls: You’re beautiful.”  Zayn Malik

I love this saying, because I used to think of myself as one of those girls who hide their pain under beautiful smiles, the ones who have so many secrets that they can’t even count, the ones who keep their heart on their sleeve and never win, the ones that wait for life to throw a miracle at them.Everybody has good days, everybody has bad days and it is okay.Just don’t keep living a lie.Don’t pretend your happy to others and then cry yourself to sleep every night.It’s like living a double life.Don’t do it.You can get over pain with the help of others and keeping everything inside won’t help you.Never wait for your life to become better.It won’t.Only you have the power inside your heart to make it better.

Life isn’t about waiting for something to happen or just suffer.It’s about making things better.If you never go after your dreams, they won’t come to you.You have to work hard and while you keep yourself busy you will forget the sorrow.It doesn’t pass in one day, one week, one month or even after years, but time lessens it.

Maybe you lost a lot or maybe your choices ended up being the worst ones almost all the time.It happens.We all learn here, right?This doesn’t mean that you should look down on yourself and pretend that your fine.No, you should admit that you’re hurting and you will be one step ahead to healing.Everybody is beautiful, everybody is loved.Even though you are not loved by that one person that you want the affection from, but you are loved.In the future you will understand that each little pain that you felt was another stone to your amazing palace that will be your life.Then, you will look back and smile.Why? Because you will be the beautiful one, inside and out and, most importantly, you will feel it.

As an advice: just be yourself.The worse will come, the best will come.You will keep your chin up.That’s what I did.It was obviously very hard, but it was worth it.If I had done just one thing different, I wouldn’t be where I am today: I wouldn’t be writing this blog or I wouldn’t be so strong.Most of all, I wouldn’t be myself.Just a cheap copy. I would follow some ideas that I wouldn’t believe in, but I am not.

I know I’m flawed and I made mistakes, but I wouldn’t change a thing and I encourage you not to think about changing a past that’s long goon, but a future that’s yet to come.After all this: wear your heart on your sleeve, hurt, suffer, admit it, smile, heal, learn, let go ,change.Those are real girls.The ones who are themselves in spite of what others tell them, the ones that love and get hurt and change.

Don’t wait for something down the road to come.You create your own path.Your life, your choice.What do you want?

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