Do you remember those movies when soldiers come back from war and everyone congratulates them? The victory is usually the last thing you see on the screen, but that’s not real life. Let’s be honest. In real life, soldiers come back to their normal lives, tormented by thousands of images in which they kill people. Do you know how I understood that? In a way, I was that soldier.
At some point in my life, I put my armour up and I went to war, because there was no other choice left. Inside my heart it was a battle that I had to win, to keep my feelings at bay. The crowd. The victory. The fame…and then, I went home. I felt wounded, haunted and with a lot of unresolved issues.
If you ask me, don’t ever try to be a soldier. You may win the war, but you will lose yourself in the process. Pieces of your heart scattered everywhere and a huge hole right in the middle of your soul. If you ask me, I’d say that this is real life where the best people get hurt the most and where you need to be your own hero, because no one will come to save you. It may sound harsh, but if you want something sweet, just watch a sugar-coated movie instead. I’d rather keep it real.
Lots of love,
Queen of Hearts