“I keep trying and I’m not getting what I want….
Well, it was not about getting what you want. It’s about learning to accept.”
This is wisdom from the middle of the night….I had an amazing dream. I actually dreamed the quote that you read earlier and then I wrote the further words. I hope you enjoy them.
I did it! I slept…and I finally understood how it works. The dream told me. I had this idea of a perfect timing, of love, of a perfect life…but it doesn’t always work like that. The way you want it to go…and if you just keep pushing and pushing, you go further away from the goal. The point was just to let go, to surrender and see what happens. Yeah, I didn’t sleep exactly when I wanted…but my anxiety started to fade and I did sleep better eventually. Maybe we don’t always get to the finish line from the start…because there is so much beauty in the road that lies ahead…and missing that would just be sad. Maybe we get where we want 10 years later. Maybe we marry the guy we would never imagine we would…and we don’t get to stick with our first love. Maybe…that was the point all along…we just forgot to pay attention to everything that speaks to us. Maybe….life was simply not about our way, but the right way…and if we keep trying to fit in a box, to never let it change, grow, expand, morph its shape into a new form… we never get to experience the whole thing and it would be a pity to miss that. We need a new perspective on things and we need it now. So, yeah…sometimes we don’t get what we want…but maybe that’s the whole point of the story – to accept the unknown, to deal with disappointment. Some people won’t change no matter how much we love them and that’s okay. We have so much to learn from this experience. Pain is such a powerful teacher, but disappointment is even better. As Robert Leahy said: “we all are disappointed….but life is not about not having to suffer…it’s about creating a life large enough to contain suffering, to contain disappointment”. It’s about the way we deal with it that matters because we all are human beings and we can’t escape that. So, let go of perfect. Let go of the ideas inside your head about what could be or should be and just live now. Appreciate every moment because it is truly a gift. Every experience, every tear, every heartbreak, the worst and the best just the same….and never forget to smile.
“Life is beautiful the way it is….and it doesn’t take two to see it. It takes YOU”
Lots of love,
Queen of Hearts